Saturday, April 30, 2005

Poetry and the City: Mere Tangents on San Francisco Living

(published in "Listen & Be Heard" Weekly / March 2005)
© 2005 Annabelle A. Udo

By day—the streets of the City are dry and the sound of my footsteps are as hoarse as an old man’s cough. The Chevron gas station across the street is a 24-hour diner serving $2.29/gallon unleaded gasoline to an endless flow of hungry vehicles.

The movement of life in San Francisco reeks with poetry—its signature fog swirls in a melancholy dance at the edge of Ocean Beach while the sun filters through a pensive overcast in the Mission District. Early risers sit concentrated and still in coffeehouses like mannequins in a storefront window while feral cats escape human contact and scurry through secret passageways in the thickets of Golden Gate Park.

Every season is the Summer of Love here in a city that dreams while it is awake. It’s a town that sweats with an identity that can only be described in poetic fashion. Every step of San Francisco’s geography contains the energy of its ancestors—of those who have stood here before me—of elders in this community whose young love remains alive in sepia-toned innocence—of stories that seem sad only because life today is so complex, while back then it seemed slow and endless—as if people made love with Time—as if it was all about sitting in a colorful world around black and white TV.

By night, the distant horizon is the setting of businesses turning off their lights and calling it a day, hopping on the MUNI, unrolling the yoga mat, and rolling a joint. It’s all in a day’s work here in this city that writes its own story everyday. San Francisco is a one-stop wonder where other worlds exist still waiting to be born in the ink of a writer’s veins or the breath of air beneath the step of a dancer’s foot.

When I first arrived here in there early ‘80s, the tone of San Francisco was like that feeling you get when you hear the first note of a new song that becomes your favorite. The sentiment of the City remains my beloved tune and I continue to walk along its golden timeline. Each time I cross over the Bay Bridge and see the shadow of the skyline from afar, I remind myself that I am part of this postcard beauty—rich with history, culture, art, architecture, music, and poetry.

The Sacred Art of the Lyric: Why Should the Devil Have All the Good Songs?

(published in "Listen & Be Heard" Weekly / September 3, 2004)
© 2005 Annabelle A. Udo

Buddhism made me a better Catholic—and a better writer. Steeping into the spiritual rather than the religious aspects helped me to tap into not only Life’s mysteries and riddles, it gave me a deeper appreciation of the struggles of humanity and how the spoken word was a strong force in releasing personal oppression. These new discoveries gave me a deeper understanding of how the thump-thump of the heart was as necessary to life as was the relationship of lyrics to a song.

I found the meditation part of it all oftentimes came in sound (say “ommmmmmmm”) which catapulted me into fine tuning myself to the unseen frequencies of space and time—a place where I can gather up the spirits of 15th century monks writing in cells of beautiful views and arched doorways, to envision silhouettes of anonymous couples strolling along the evening waters in Spain, or even just to bask in the mellow glow of a 1970’s sunrise.

Amidst the journey, I found that heaven isn’t a fluffy stratosphere in the sky but that Life itself was a heavenly dish seasoned by reality and imagination, sparked by past and present, enlivened by experience and not just existence. Walk into a place like City Lights Bookstore (261 Columbus Avenue, San Francisco) and the spines of thousands of books written by a myriad of poets continue to bless us with some of the most powerful pieces of our time.

For centuries, writing was not only a mark of literacy it was a highly revered form of communication and documentation. Perhaps with the human need for harmony and melody, the Word evolved into a new kind of lyricism giving even more power to the senses of the masses. With the likes of the ecclesiastical chants of Pope Gregory I, the witty tangents of Frank Zappa and the powerful beats and rhymes of Public Enemy, words seem to be lifted from the pages and swirled into the universe in the same space as dragonflies, kites, and airplanes. The ability for words to take flight in the form of song is truly magical.

As history has it, Pope Gregory the Great (590-604 A.D.), may have been one of the first rockers of our time. Best known for his Gregorian chants (not the pop group Enigma) the sanctity of the word was put to song as a musical response to the Scriptures, creating one of the most ancient forms of musical prayer. With its deepest values coming through its melody, the chant has become an intrinsic part of daily monastic life as nourishing as breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Some operas have played a similar role as that of chants and psalms applying the formula of putting scripture to song such as, J.S. Bach’s scriptural music collection of “Magnificat” based on the Book of Luke, or Aaron Copeland’s, “In the Beginning” based on Genesis.

The beat poets were, in more modern times, inspired by the essence of Zen Buddhism. Such luminaries as Allen Ginsberg, Lawrence Ferlinghetti, Diane DiPrima and Gary Snyder, were among these writers who skatted their zen words to jazz rhythm. And the list goes on and on. . . . in the late ‘60s such wordsmiths as the Last Poets’ Umar Bin Hassan and Abiodun Oyewoleof, who were inspired by Islamic texts, were dynamic pioneers of "jazzoetry" defined by its mixture of jazz and funk with poetry.

From the quill and scroll that created the Declaration of Independence to the chiseled hieroglyphics of ancient Egypt, these pioneers of the written word preserved stories that allow us to walk backward into the passage of time—still to be dazzled by their lasting memory.

Friday, April 29, 2005

Yours, Mine, and Ours

Chevron Gas Prices o' the Day (19th Avenue)
$2.63 - Regular Unleaded
$2.73 - Premium
$2.83 - Supreme

There are times when I am in deep reverie on a Saturday morning. . . and the sun itself is still very sleepy. With my blinds still shut I bend a few slats to peer out at the mood of the day. . . and. .. the gas prices of the day. The same patterns of impatient drivers and pesky pedestrians interacting with each other begin as if they clock in with their timecards before the boss shows up--whoever that might be. Meanwhile, I'm thinking that I need to take care of domestic chores--wash the dishes, sweep the floors of the apartment I only rent, not own. I am a slave of the City's beauty. Wanting more to be a part of its luscious landscape that people come from millions of miles away to visit--I am a part of their pilgrimage--the postcard they once received and now can send in the same way that I sent myself a note from the Philippines only to arrive in the United States 2 days before receiving this self-addressed stamped letter to myself. As I see it, the moon, the sky, the clouds, and all the dot-to-dot constellations that we revisit each time a clear night comes our way--these things belong to all of us, without a doubt. It's not about ownership, but, rather about relationship with the universe.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

The Snooze Button

Chevron Gas Prices o' the Day (19th Avenue)
$2.63 - Regular Unleaded
$2.73 - Premium
$2.83 - Supreme

In the beginning. . .the alarm clock goes off at 6:30 a.m. But, in my half awake state, I am also. . .half asleep. At this point, I hit the snooze button and psych myself into hanging out with the friends I have made in my dreams. For some reason I am always on a university campus with lots of hilly routes to reach my class. The weather is humid and lots of overcast and oftentimes my dreams take place in the late '80s. In this particular dream, I'm supposed to be going to class but end up at a small ice cream shoppe with tall tables and tall barstools. It's almost always silent in my dreams even though it's bustling with people and enjoyment. Here, I am still. Quiet in this beehive of activity. Thinking, thinking, thinking and observing. . .. drifting further into a deeper sleep and then I wake up to my hand clutching my battery operated alarm clock holding down the snooze button. . .and it's 2 hours later. Rush, rush, rush and up the hill to catch my train. Another workout in the rain as my umbrella slows me down and I huff and puff my way up the avenue. When I arrive, the train stop is empty and the guy who is always warming up his motorcycle in the morning has already left. I am late. Just another day and the gas prices haven't even changed.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Hump Day Tangents

Chevron Gas Prices o' the Day (19th Avenue)
$2.63 - Regular Unleaded
$2.73 - Premium
$2.83 - Supreme

So, the gas prices didn't change. For once. Smells like fresh paint and chicken wings in my apartment. Sitting here eating soy yogurt with windows wide open and it's freezing in here. But it still stinks in here. Why did the neighbor across the hall have to move out? Now it's all about dressing it all up for another stranger to move in. The air is intoxicating and I am high on Dutch Boy fumes. Here's to another breathing hour of my life in the City. . .!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Event Flashback: Kaleo Cafe, San Francisco - March 4, 2005


19th Avenue Living

Chevron Gas Prices o' the Day (19th Avenue)
$2.63 - Regular Unleaded
$2.73 - Premium
$2.83 - Supreme

I'm bombarded by signs--whether or not they are omens or just billboards--the signs are there.

-Looping on a First Republic Bank marquee flashing the following: "Maximum Balance $5,000, FDIC Insured, Ask Us For Details, 5 Month CD Special, 3.25.% Annual, 3.25% Percentage, 3.25% Yield"

-"Tow Away Lane Must Turn Right"

'"Left Lane Must Turn Left"

"No U Turn"

The traffic light turns red. Stop.
The traffic light turns yellow. Speed.
The traffic light turns green. Go.

Monday, April 25, 2005

Random Musings on April 25, 2005

Chevron Gas Prices o' the Day (19th Avenue)
$2.65 - Regular Unleaded
$2.75 - Premium
$2.85 - Supreme

My brain feels as if it is eating itself up—swallowing itself intestine by intestine. Though moments like these can be helpful when it comes to writing, I wish I didn’t feel so far removed and numb from the bustle of City life. I have felt this feeling for years—never having a race, not really having a pack of friends to roam the streets on empty nights, not even having a family because I never really felt related, never having a country because I never really looked like any one of them. My mannerisms definitely suggest that I want to be left alone and people have told me, that before they really knew me, they were too afraid to even bother to ask my name. And now, even as they know my name, they don’t really even bother to know me. My thinking can be profound although to an intellectual, I am stupid. To someone who is naïve or innocent, I am lauded. Even on artificial things like physical beauty, I am ugly next to someone who is strikingly gorgeous, while beautiful next to someone who is homely. There is balance in this weird world of ours although it’s really all about perspective.